Friday, October 31, 2003

 
Thoughts for Samhain:

I don't do Halloween as a holiday. I don't do dress up and make-believe because I prefer reality. To that end, perhaps I should use this opportunity to explore whether there is anything I would like to be that I'm not, and investigate what I'd have to do to make it so.

Perhaps this is the time to do some trance work about finding an ancestor guide.

I would like to make the time to do the trance work to join the rest of the Pagan Cluster tonight at the Reclaiming Clanhouse.


It's frustrating to not be able to do the things are important to me. For example, I would really like to be able to call up folks in my circle and invite them over tonight for some divination work and to trance to the Reclaiming Clanhouse for some preparation for Miami actions. But I can't. I have no home to invite them to. I've been without a home since the middle of September, and I don't see that changing anytime soon. If I worked with specific deities (which I rarely do), I would work with Hestia - Goddess of the hearth and home. That has always been where my spirit is drawn. Living without a home is the most difficult task I have ever undertaken. Not sure how much longer I can last at it, or much longer I should torture my spirit by trying.
soulspirals 11:09 AM

Saturday, October 25, 2003

 
Ahh. My host is back up. Much better.

General updates as follows:

• Got sick the day I arrived at Witchcamp.
  
• Got better.
  
• Witchcamp rocked immensely.
  
• My father-in-law died. We're adjusting.
  
• Witchcamp ended.
  
• Funeral ensued.
  
• Got very sick.
  
• Got home.
  
• Still pretty sick.
  

Life is, however, interesting.

soulspirals 10:47 PM